OVD Update Just Tired of it

 Hey Everyone,

  So my room mate search isn't going well. I have one maybe but she's 26 and so far seems flakey. 

I'm just so tired of this..

I'm tired of the needless stress

I'm tired of the constant starving

I'm tired of the constant pain

I'm tired of asking for help

You'd figure with as tired as I am I'd be able to sleep...well

I'm tired of not being able to sleep for shit. 

Swords to plowshares isn't calling me back so that looks like a dead end. I have no clue what I'll do if I don't find a room mate fast. I can't bring myself to beg from my friends for more money to delay this another month. 

I feel there is no place for me anymore and I'm just a drain on society. I've always been the opposite so it makes this even harder. 

I'm just tired, depressed and feel hopeless.

-OVD 



Comments

  1. Otto Von DangerJanuary 27, 2022 at 11:33 AM

    I guess I should figure out how to give my stuff away and get to the hills for the long walk.

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  2. Otto Von DangerJanuary 27, 2022 at 2:51 PM

    and the Gal that was a maybe was looking for a place in...drum roll...LA...and somehow thought Oakland was close to LA. So no go.

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  3. Otto Von DangerJanuary 28, 2022 at 4:47 PM

    Yup...looks like the long walk. I'll be giving my stuff away next month then heading out on my last hike.

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  4. BobJanuary 28, 2022 at 6:13 PM

    I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. Wish there was something I could do to help.

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    1. Otto Von DangerJanuary 29, 2022 at 10:14 AM

      Well that's all about to end.

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    2. BobJanuary 29, 2022 at 1:57 PM

      I wish I knew what to say here.

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    3. Otto Von DangerJanuary 29, 2022 at 2:15 PM

      There is nothing to say. America fucked me hard for serving. And people wonder why 22 veterans kill themselves daily...that's why.

      Delete
    4. BobJanuary 29, 2022 at 4:43 PM

      And people who may actually be able to do something about it spend more money on expensive tools of war than on the people who train for and fight them.

      Delete
    5. Otto Von DangerJanuary 29, 2022 at 6:47 PM

      This country has no morals only greed

      Delete
    6. UnknownJanuary 30, 2022 at 5:49 AM

      Please Otto, give things a chance to work themselves out, I'm sure once January is over the GoFundMe will pick up, we'll come up with something ❤❤❤ Whitetail and Maria

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    7. Otto Von DangerJanuary 30, 2022 at 7:00 AM

      I just can't beg from my friends anymore. You all have helped more than I deserve. I give my 30 days notice on Tuesday. I may not wait the whole month to take the long walk. I almost did last night the pain was so bad.

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